ok. we're supposed to get into groups of 3 for our role play project for CS. & we already did that last week. but the problem is im not at all happy about it. i feel im forced to be in the same group as them. coz there're nobody else we 3 knew in our still new class. ok. at first, when we decided on the group, i felt like, " ok. u can do this. just ignore your feelings about this for 3 or so weeks." but now i feel as if i had made a big mistake by joining them as group members.

ok. so first off, let me introduce to u my group members. let one of them be A. & the other be B. alright. so i called for a group discussion to be held yesterday during our break. & they were quite positive about it when i told them about it. but when yesterday came, coz we had to look at our project guidelines on our laptop, that means everybody will have their freedom of using their laptop. which means there'll also be internet, right. so all 3 of us were sitted together but all facing our own laptop screens. i waited for a while.... coz maybe they would like to begin the discussion first. but noooo... nobody said anything & did their own work. so i began by asking qns related to our project. but only A seemed to be interested in what i was saying. B just continued looking at her screen & smiling like an idiot. i beg my pardon. but seriously, i really thought she looked like an idiot, smiling at herself like nobody's business. well, HELLO??? im trying to start a discussion here & there u are, happily chatting away or doing whatsoever with your idiot laptop. ok now, her laptop is also an idiot. like her. ARGHH. SH*T u larhhh.

at first, it went quite ok. although i kept on telling B to concentrate on our project & at the very least, provide some suggestions for our role play. to be exact, i didn't actually TOLD her. rather, i was calling her in a nice-but-almost-irritated tone to answer the qns i was asking. coz she was ignoring the discussion i was trying to make. A was at least contributing some good ideas. & i appreciate that. UNTIL.... we changed vanue. we went to class coz class's starting soon & so we decided to discuss it there. i thought we could still continue to discuss our project. BUT NOOOOO... what the hell was i thinking? of coz the both of them would want to gladly carry on doing their own stupid stuffs & ignore me completely. well, if u wanna know, that's exactly what they did. how could i not be damn frustrated with them??? IT'S THEIR DAMN FREAKING ATTITUDE!

WELL, FROM WHAT I OBSERVED, I AM THE ONLY ONE IN THIS GROUP WHO CARES ABOUT THIS ROLE PLAY PROJECT THINGY. U GUYS ARE JUST BEING INCONSIDERATE & RUDE & JUST PLAIN LAZY!!! WHY DO I CARE ABOUT THIS PROJECT? SIMPLE. COZ I HAVE ASPIRATIONS, UNLIKE U GUYS. I HAVE ASPIRATIONS ABOUT THE FUTURE. ABOUT MY FUTURE. MAYBE U GUYS DON'T EVEN CARE IF U 2 WERE TO FAIL TEP, NOT GET A DIPLOMA, NOT GET A DEGREE, NOT HAVE A GOOD JOB, ETC......... BUT I DO CARE. & I WANT TO GET A GOOD GRADE & IF U 2 CARRY ON LIKE THIS, WITH THIS KIND OF ATTITUDE, I WOULD PROBABLY JUST BURST OUT IN FRONT OF U GUYS & TELL THE TRUTH. TELL WHAT I THINK IS RIGHT. COZ U GUYS DESERVE A DRESSING DOWN. OHH WHAT AM I KIDDING??? U GUYS HAVE BEEN HAVING THAT ATTITUDE SINCE YEAR 1. ESPECIALLY SO FOR B. FREE RIDERS ARE NOT WELCOME IN MY GROUP. I DUNNO IF U GUYS ARE READING MY BLOG OR NOT. BUT IF U'RE READING, DON'T TAKE IT THE OTHER WAY. JUST TAKE IT THAT IM CONCERN FOR U GUYS & WANT U GUYS TO IMPROVE FROM THAT CARE-LESS ATTITUDE. JUST THINK ABOUT IT. WHAT DO U GAIN FROM NOT PAYING ATTENTION IN CLASSES & NOT HAVING ANY CARE ABOUT PROJECTS???

im fed up about this. i might even confront A & B if they're still behaving this way. i can't stand their attitude anymore. 2 weeks of watching them in class. & our project's due next Friday. none of them approached me or asked anything about the project & how is it going to be completed, when to meet up to discuss the project & complete it once & for all.... I REALLY DO WONDER WHAT'S THEIR PURPOSE OF GOING TO SCHOOL. DON'T THEY EVEN CARE ABOUT ANYTHING???