2dae haf band at 2.30pm. it ended at about 6.15pm lyke dat. haiz...2dae's band prac. suck! mr chew was as usual angry wif us. but 2dae he flare up partly bcoz of trombone section. ermz, 2 be specific, bcoz of me. haiz...veri diff. 2 explain it in here..i hate 1st stand lehz. the expectations so high. mr chew expect me 2 blow as good as justin. i tell u, im not even lyke a 1st trombone player coz i cant even pitch the high notes n i cant blow loud. den tis justin blow so loud. den if compare my sound 2 his, its lyke veri different lorz...but he veri good mahz. den my blowing lyke shit lyke dat. wahlau! den i tell the seniors dat my blowing not gd so y not change me 2 2nd stand. but they dun wan. dun understand them lorz. den its lyke no point 4 me if i still stay in 1st trombone coz i still cant be lyke justin n leon. so wads the point?? yu jia told me dat i can blow but i muz practise lorz. i doubt dat even though i practised, i will be better. im juz not suit 2 be in 1st stand! den feel lyke wanna quit band alreadi. but if i tell mr chew dat i wanna quit, sure he will ask me y. den i dunno how 2 answer him...den sure kena scolded. den now dunno wad 2 do. if i remain in band, den will suffer coz i still cant blow veri well. haiz...wad 2 do??? band will sure be dead next year. wif no justin 2 blow the solo, no seniors 2 help teach us n me still not gd in blowing. i wish dat the sec 3 seniors will not pass out next year...but no choice lorz. den we haf the SYF competition next year. mr chew wan us 2 get gold. coz last year our band oso get gold. but i dun even think we can even achieve a silver next year. if next year get bronze, i oso happy alreadi liaoz. coz even now, our band alreadi suck.